Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Master Forger My frustrations of not receiving a PSMA scan (to inform my advanced cancer treatment) literally, boiled over. With only two possibilities wait (hope) that the Christie produced availability or zero. No possibility for a (UK) scan. We had an imminent trip toContinue reading “Desperate Times Desperate Measures”
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Yet Another Fight
Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Just when you thought it was over? It had only just begun So far I had managed to channel my Terror and (3 seconds of) Ecstasy when hearing I had cancer towards life. My fight to live. This changed the second IContinue reading “Yet Another Fight”
Small(er) Things Big(er) Things
Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace When you find out you have finite time (to live)? A natural response might be blind terror, panic …..questions? What about all of those things I need to (now) do? To attend to? The ‘putting of ones affairs in order’! I can’t believe someContinue reading “Small(er) Things Big(er) Things”
Time Waits For No Man
Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Time We are all at it’s Mercy? A cancer diagnosis is a powerful catalyst for change. Imposed change and controlled change. Positive and negative. I was diagnosed Christmas Eve 2015 No you weren’t? If you have read some of my previous posts, you willContinue reading “Time Waits For No Man”
Spill The Beans
Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace 23rd December 2015 5.45PM What seemed about 15 minutes of crying …. sobbing, loudly, inconsolably in the carpark and then less violently sitting in my car. When I could, I drove the short journey home. I still had it in my mind that IContinue reading “Spill The Beans”
Terror – Receiving a Cancer Diagnosis
Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death 23rd December 2016 – 3.30PM 23rd December was to be my work Christmas Doo (party). An, after work, early start, (6.00pm) nothing extravagant, five work colleagues, party hats, hastily arranged, as usual, an overcooked, overpriced, conveyor belt, Christmas meal, followedContinue reading “Terror – Receiving a Cancer Diagnosis”
Living Inside A COVID Straightjacket
Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Time is precious My clock’s ticking, loudly and quickly. Frustrating when you have things to do but are restricted in everything you can or cannot do. What would you do if circumstances allowed you to do literally anything? If your only restriction, is time?Continue reading “Living Inside A COVID Straightjacket”
Dying to Live 