Scanxiety

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death It’s that time again, blood tests, a round of scans and the short, stressful, wait to see how much worse my cancer is. No matter how many times I go thru this it is always the most stressful of times within my treatment cycle. SCANXIETY The wait between having a scan and gettingContinue reading “Scanxiety”

Social Values

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Currently the biggest problem in the modern society is brainwashing via governments, media, ecclesiastical bodies, fashion and the education sector. All other issues stem from people being brainwashed and puppeteered by these sectors. Social values include justice, freedom, respect, community, and responsibility. In today’s world, it may seem our society doesn’t practice many values. TheContinue reading “Social Values”

Let It Be

Life– Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Saturday 25th June 2022 – Pyramid Stage Glastonbury I felt a small hand reach out for mine in the dark, my son’s hand. He gently held, then squeezed mine. The last time I (perfectly) remember us holding hands was around 35 years ago, he was aged 3 or 4. I took him toContinue reading “Let It Be”

That’s Life

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. There are things we enjoy, love in our lives and things that just have to be done. Most of us have to work for a living, if we are (very) lucky we get to have a job we love? Work, our job, is a massive part of our lives. How muchContinue reading “That’s Life”

Guilt

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Dad Mum Only hours after dad had died, a nurse told Carol this…. Dad was recovering in hospital after a heart attack and then a pacemaker procedure. He was not well, turns out closer to death than everybody thought. In the end, heContinue reading “Guilt”

John

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Professionally 1973-1999 – Musician… ask me who I am, I would reply – ‘I am ‘Johnny Riff’ – Riff to my friends, I play in a band’. A performer, an artist (recording), a writer (songs, music), an engineer (music,Continue reading “John”

Old

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. You know that you are old when the first thing that comes into your head whilst watching an attractive woman cooking is ‘wow look at how well she is chopping that spring onion’? Happy Easter-Saturday people Thanks for reading.Continue reading “Old”

Won The Battle Now The War

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace  Fight Vindication The scan had produced the goods. I felt vindicated for my stubborn refusal to concede the scan. A scan I had been promised. Reality. Truth is if I had not been promised it I would have not even been aware of it?Continue reading “Won The Battle Now The War”

Small(er) Things Big(er) Things

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace When you find out you have finite time (to live)? A natural response might be blind terror, panic …..questions? What about all of those things I need to (now) do? To attend to? The ‘putting of ones affairs in order’! I can’t believe someContinue reading “Small(er) Things Big(er) Things”