Scanxiety

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death It’s that time again, blood tests, a round of scans and the short, stressful, wait to see how much worse my cancer is. No matter how many times I go thru this it is always the most stressful of times within my treatment cycle. SCANXIETY The wait between having a scan and gettingContinue reading “Scanxiety”

Cancer Clinical Trials

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death Prostate cancer (PCa) is the most common malignancy and second leading cause of cancer-related death amongst men in the Western World. The idea to utilise the patients’ immune system to fight tumours has revolutionized the field of anticancer therapy within the last decade. In fact, immunotherapeutic approaches have been triumphant in several highlyContinue reading “Cancer Clinical Trials”

I would rather know

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Today is results day. The results of my latest PSMA-PET scan. PSA level is (still) the most reliable indication of prostate cancer advancement. A simple blood test (PSA test). A sudden change ‘a spike’ is never good. I had a scheduled (every 6 months) PSA test in April with nothing thatContinue reading “I would rather know”

That’s Life

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. There are things we enjoy, love in our lives and things that just have to be done. Most of us have to work for a living, if we are (very) lucky we get to have a job we love? Work, our job, is a massive part of our lives. How muchContinue reading “That’s Life”

Let’s Talk About Death

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Truth is we are really shit at dying? Our own death and those of our loved ones. We are just not very comfortable with death and dying? The only certainty in life, we know it’s going to come yetContinue reading “Let’s Talk About Death”

He Is Gone (She Is Gone)

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. You can shed tears that he is goneOr you can smile because he has livedYou can close your eyes and pray that he will come backOr you can open your eyes and see all that he has leftYour heartContinue reading “He Is Gone (She Is Gone)”

John

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Professionally 1973-1999 – Musician… ask me who I am, I would reply – ‘I am ‘Johnny Riff’ – Riff to my friends, I play in a band’. A performer, an artist (recording), a writer (songs, music), an engineer (music,Continue reading “John”

What Is A Life?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Pain. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Death There is never a good time to die and dying is filled with many challenges and not only for the dying. Despite the certainty of it, we are really shit at it? Most of us acknowledge how vital itContinue reading “What Is A Life?”