Small(er) Things Big(er) Things

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace

When you find out you have finite time (to live)?

A natural response might be blind terror, panic …..questions?

What about all of those things I need to (now) do? To attend to? The ‘putting of ones affairs in order’! I can’t believe some doctors (or misters?) actually say that ‘time to put your affairs in order’.

To be truthful this has never been said to me …. i almost wish it had, at least then I would know that ‘it was time to put my affairs in order.

Affairs will be different for everyone in terms of priorities but will ruffly fall into only a handful of ‘things’? Time. Money. Loved Ones. Self. Big things and little things.

Truth is, in the (very) beginning you have no clue ….. you know you are going to die yes, but when? Clearly that could make a huge difference? For example, like in the science fiction films you find out the world is going to end and you (we) have only 24 hours to live?

What would you do? Even within that, black & white, scenario there are complications? What you would Want to do might not be the same as what you Can do? The thing is, it’s even more complicated when not everybody else is going to die?

I have mentioned this before, terror, panic. I cannot emphasise how important it is (for me) to know long I have to live. So I can ‘get my things in order’.

Priorities. Necessities. Importanties. Small(er) Things. Big(er) Things.

Thanks for reading.


Published by Riff

Husband to my inspirational, (long suffering,) wife Gail, father to two, amazing (adult) children, Aubrey & Perri, teacher, former guitarist. When I started this blog I quickly became granda(r) to my beautiful, first grandson Henderson. Grandparenting, something I was relishing but had began to believe I would not get to experience. I now have three incredible grandsons, Henderson, Fennec and just days ago Nate. I Love people. I love my family, my incredible friends, I have love(d) what I do (my Job), I love Music, Glastonbury Festival, Cars, Everton .... I love many things but, most of all, I fucking love life.

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