Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death It’s that time again, blood tests, a round of scans and the short, stressful, wait to see how much worse my cancer is. No matter how many times I go thru this it is always the most stressful of times within my treatment cycle. SCANXIETY The wait between having a scan and gettingContinue reading “Scanxiety”

Graduation Graduation Graduation

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. I love LIPA graduations. The end of three years of hard work, celebrations, congratulations, the difficult time to say goodbye (but not farewell) to my amazing students. Many of them good friends, some for life. A joyous day and night. My first graduation, my own (2001), as a student at the tender ageContinue reading “Graduation Graduation Graduation”

Social Values

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Currently the biggest problem in the modern society is brainwashing via governments, media, ecclesiastical bodies, fashion and the education sector. All other issues stem from people being brainwashed and puppeteered by these sectors. Social values include justice, freedom, respect, community, and responsibility. In today’s world, it may seem our society doesn’t practice many values. TheContinue reading “Social Values”

Let It Be

Life– Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Saturday 25th June 2022 – Pyramid Stage Glastonbury I felt a small hand reach out for mine in the dark, my son’s hand. He gently held, then squeezed mine. The last time I (perfectly) remember us holding hands was around 35 years ago, he was aged 3 or 4. I took him toContinue reading “Let It Be”

I would rather know

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Today is results day. The results of my latest PSMA-PET scan. PSA level is (still) the most reliable indication of prostate cancer advancement. A simple blood test (PSA test). A sudden change ‘a spike’ is never good. I had a scheduled (every 6 months) PSA test in April with nothing thatContinue reading “I would rather know”

That’s Life

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. There are things we enjoy, love in our lives and things that just have to be done. Most of us have to work for a living, if we are (very) lucky we get to have a job we love? Work, our job, is a massive part of our lives. How muchContinue reading “That’s Life”

Six Years In

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Six years ago to the very day – 23/12/2015 just an ordinary day, then, after what I thought were routine checks, I was told by my GP I had prostate cancer. Three short months later – 17/3/2016 ‘Paddy sContinue reading “Six Years In”


Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Last night (10.30pm) my phone sounded. We have Facbook Portal, linked to our TV, our phones and laptops. Regularly, around this time we get a Portal call from our Daughter in Australia, early morning for them, the time whenContinue reading “Love”

Johnny Reynolds 1918-1987

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. A nice man Dad If my Dad’s name ever came up in conversation, if you were to mention my dad to anyone, they would, immediately respond “Johnny Reynolds”, a lovely man’. Dad was a nice man, simple as that.Continue reading “Johnny Reynolds 1918-1987”