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Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 1)

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Love I have been thinking about if I grew up happy (or not)? Now that I know I am going to die the thing I desire most is … To die feeling loved & to be remembered (fondly). TheContinue reading “Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 1)”

Earliest Childhood Memories

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Me.Glasses.Me I have worn glasses from an early age (3-4), I believe they are a defining characteristic of my personality, my identity. Who I am. For over 50 plus years I have embraced and nurtured my relationship with spectaclesContinue reading “Earliest Childhood Memories”

Trying To Make Sense Of It All

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Early Memories When looking back on the past it is often difficult to distinguish between memories of actual events and occurrences or recollections of others accounts of those events. I certainly have memories of good and bad events inContinue reading “Trying To Make Sense Of It All”

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Professionally 1973-1999 – Musician… ask me who I am, I would reply – ‘I am ‘Johnny Riff’ – Riff to my friends, I play in a band’. A performer, an artist (recording), a writer (songs, music), an engineer (music,Continue reading “Riff”

What Is A Life?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Pain. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Death There is never a good time to die and dying is filled with many challenges and not only for those who are dying. Despite the certainty of it, we are really shit at it? Most of us acknowledge howContinue reading “What Is A Life?”

Old

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. You know that you are old when the first thing that comes into your head whilst watching an attractive woman cooking is, ‘look at how well she is chopping that spring onion’? Happy Easter-Saturday people Thanks for reading. Peace

PAIN

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Pain I cannot remember a time in my life without pain I have tried to put a (time) date on a time without pain but I cannot. For as long as I can remember I cannot recall not beingContinue reading “PAIN”

A Mixed Bag

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Scanxiety I have just got off the phone with one of my (cancer) consultants, Radiologist (oncology) Dr Eswar. A nice, laid-back chap. I like him. He gave me my (latest) CT and MRI scans results, performed only last week! IContinue reading “A Mixed Bag”

BRCA1 & BRCA2 It’s All Down To Our Genes?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Post Genealogy Screening Results My aim for Genealogy Screening was to establish a baseline that might help to forewarn (and) protect my son, daughter and grandson (and future grandchildren) in years to come. However, I did also have more thanContinue reading “BRCA1 & BRCA2 It’s All Down To Our Genes?”

Geno Immuno Therapy Cancer Trials

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Today, 25th March ’21, as part of an assessment for eligibility to enrolle onto a Geno Therapy Trial I will be undergoing a new round of scans – CT Thorax abdo pelvis with contrast and whole body bone scanning …toContinue reading “Geno Immuno Therapy Cancer Trials”