Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death.


1973-1999 – Musician… ask me who I am, I would reply – ‘I am ‘Johnny Riff’ – Riff to my friends, I play in a band’.

A performer, an artist (recording), a writer (songs, music), an engineer (music, sound studio, live), a producer (music), a business man (management of artists/bands), an administrator, an entrepreneur… I have been all of those things.

I began by wanting to be the best, ‘the best guitarist in the world’, or at least I though that is what I wanted. I realise now what I wanted wasn’t to be the ‘best’. I wanted to be successful, not even the most successful, just successful … to be the best wasn’t enough.


2001 – 2021 Academic or teacher? Teacher – ask me who (what) I am? I am a teacher.

I might be a gatekeeper, an aggregator, a facilitator, a mentor… all of these things. I began ‘teaching’ to gain employment. My aim was to work at a specialist Higher Education Institution (LIPA). At least, that is what I thought I wanted.

I realise now that to be successful, was also not enough, I needed to be ‘good’ at what I did, to be a good, and also. a successful teacher. Recognition, academically, professionally, by my peers, by my students, by my family, by my friends – by my AUNTY MAY!

Personally – Personality?

Family man – Husband. Father. Friend (& now grandfather).

Ambitious, driven, dedicated, committed. Selfish.

Have i changed?


How do i know?

I have cancer.  

Thanks for reading


Published by Riff

Husband to my inspirational, (long suffering) wife, father of two amazing (adult) children, teacher, former guitarist (now guitar owner), recent 'granda(r) to my beautiful grandson who I am yet to meet. I Love people. I love my family, my friends, I love(d) what I do (my Job), I love Music, Cars, Everton .... I love many things, most of all I fucking love 'life'.

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