Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death.


1973-1999 – Musician… ask me who I am, I would reply – ‘I am ‘Johnny Riff’ – Riff to my friends, I play in a band’.

A performer, an artist (recording), a writer (songs, music), an engineer (music, sound studio, live), a producer (music), a business man (management of artists/bands), an administrator, an entrepreneur… I have been all of those things.

I began by wanting to be the best, ‘the best guitarist in the world’, or at least I though that is what I wanted. I realise now what I wanted wasn’t to be the ‘best’. I wanted to be successful, not even the most successful, just successful … to be the best wasn’t enough.


2001 – 2021 Academic or teacher? Teacher – ask me who (what) I am? I am a teacher.

I might be a gatekeeper, an aggregator, a facilitator, a mentor… all of these things. I began ‘teaching’ to gain employment. My aim was to work at a specialist Higher Education Institution (LIPA). At least, that is what I thought I wanted.

I realise now that to be successful, was also not enough, I needed to be ‘good’ at what I did, to be a good, and also. a successful teacher. Recognition, academically, professionally, by my peers, by my students, by my family, by my friends – by my AUNTY MAY!

Personally – Personality?

Family man – Husband. Father. Friend (& now grandfather).

Ambitious, driven, dedicated, committed. Selfish.

Have i changed?


How do i know?

I have cancer.  

Thanks for reading


Published by Riff

Husband to my inspirational, (long suffering,) wife Gail, father to two, amazing (adult) children, Aubrey & Perri, teacher, former guitarist. When I started this blog I quickly became granda(r) to my beautiful, first grandson Henderson. Grandparenting, something I was relishing but had began to believe I would not get to experience. I now have three incredible grandsons, Henderson, Fennec and just days ago Nate. I Love people. I love my family, my incredible friends, I have love(d) what I do (my Job), I love Music, Glastonbury Festival, Cars, Everton .... I love many things but, most of all, I fucking love life.

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