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3% Club

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Five years ago to the day (yesterday) 17th March 2016 ‘Paddy’s Day’ my prostate surgery anniversary, Da Vinci Robotic-assisted Laparoscopic Radical Prostatectomy. A radical prostatectomy is a surgical procedure for the complete removal of the prostate and close proximity surrounding tissues/nerves. ItContinue reading “3% Club”

Dying Inside A COVID Straight-Jacket

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Time Time is precious. More so if you are restricted in what you can do with it. The clock’s ticking…. My clock is ticking faster and faster What would you do if circumstances allowed you to do literally anything youContinue reading “Dying Inside A COVID Straight-Jacket”

Won The Battle Now The War

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace  Fight Vindication The scan had produced the goods. I felt vindicated for my stubborn refusal to concede the scan. A scan I had been promised. Reality. Truth is if I had not been promised it I would have not even been aware of it?Continue reading “Won The Battle Now The War”

Desperate Times Desperate Measures

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace  Master Forger My frustrations of not receiving a PSMA scan (to inform my advanced cancer treatment) literally, boiled over. With only two possibilities wait (hope) that the Christie produced availability or zero. No possibility for a (UK) scan. We had an imminent trip toContinue reading “Desperate Times Desperate Measures”

Small(er) Things Big(er) Things

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace When you find out you have finite time (to live)? A natural response might be blind terror, panic …..questions? What about all of those things I need to (now) do? To attend to? The ‘putting of ones affairs in order’! I can’t believe someContinue reading “Small(er) Things Big(er) Things”

Time. 16. 17 And Beyond

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Fight For the second time in only a few months I was told that I had (incurable) cancer. I had already been told I had cancer, but not incurable cancer. It was even more terrifying hearing it the second time. They don’t know untilContinue reading “Time. 16. 17 And Beyond”

Time Waits For No Man

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Time We are all at it’s Mercy? A cancer diagnosis is a powerful catalyst for change. Imposed change and controlled change. Positive and negative. I was diagnosed Christmas Eve 2015 No you weren’t? If you have read some of my previous posts, you willContinue reading “Time Waits For No Man”

Spill The Beans

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace 23rd December 2015 5.45PM What seemed about 15 minutes of crying …. sobbing, loudly, inconsolably in the carpark and then less violently sitting in my car. When I could, I drove the short journey home. I still had it in my mind that IContinue reading “Spill The Beans”

Terror – Receiving a Cancer Diagnosis

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death 23rd December 2016 – 3.30PM 23rd December was to be my work Christmas Doo (party). An, after work, early start, (6.00pm) nothing extravagant, five work colleagues, party hats, hastily arranged. An overcooked, overpriced, conveyor belt, Christmas meal, followed by aContinue reading “Terror – Receiving a Cancer Diagnosis”