Love

I would rather know

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Today is results day. The results of my latest PSMA-PET scan. PSA level is (still) the most reliable indication of prostate cancer advancement. A simple blood test (PSA test). A sudden change ‘a spike’ is never good. I had a scheduled (every 6 months) PSA test in April with nothing thatContinue reading “I would rather know”

That’s Life

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. There are things we enjoy, love in our lives and things that just have to be done. Most of us have to work for a living, if we are (very) lucky we get to have a job we love? Work, our job, is a massive part of our lives. How muchContinue reading “That’s Life”

Six Years In

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Six years ago to the very day – 23/12/2015 just an ordinary day, then, after what I thought were routine checks, I was told by my GP I had prostate cancer. Three short months later – 17/3/2016 ‘Paddy sContinue reading “Six Years In”

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Last night (10.30pm) my phone sounded. We have Facbook Portal, linked to our TV, our phones and laptops. Regularly, around this time we get a Portal call from our Daughter in Australia, early morning for them, the time whenContinue reading “Love”

Johnny Reynolds 1918-1987

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. A nice man Dad If my Dad’s name ever came up in conversation, if you were to mention my dad to anyone, they would, immediately respond “Johnny Reynolds”, a lovely man’. Dad was a nice man, simple as that.Continue reading “Johnny Reynolds 1918-1987”

Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 1)

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Love I have been thinking about if I grew up happy (or not)? Now that I know I am going to die the thing I desire most is … To die feeling loved & to be remembered (fondly). TheContinue reading “Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 1)”

What Is A Life?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Pain. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Death There is never a good time to die and dying is filled with many challenges and not only for those who are dying. Despite the certainty of it, we are really shit at it? Most of us acknowledge howContinue reading “What Is A Life?”

Time. 16. 17 And Beyond

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Fight For the second time in only a few months I was told that I had (incurable) cancer. I had already been told I had cancer, but not incurable cancer. It was even more terrifying hearing it the second time. They don’t know untilContinue reading “Time. 16. 17 And Beyond”

Time Waits For No Man

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Time We are all at it’s Mercy? A cancer diagnosis is a powerful catalyst for change. Imposed change and controlled change. Positive and negative. I was diagnosed Christmas Eve 2015 No you weren’t? If you have read some of my previous posts, you willContinue reading “Time Waits For No Man”

Spill The Beans

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace 23rd December 2015 5.45PM What seemed about 15 minutes of crying …. sobbing, loudly, inconsolably in the carpark and then less violently sitting in my car. When I could, I drove the short journey home. I still had it in my mind that IContinue reading “Spill The Beans”