A Mixed Bag

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Scanxiety I have just got off the phone with one of my (cancer) consultants, Radiologist (oncology) Dr Eswar. A nice, laid-back chap. I like him. He gave me my (latest) results from CT and MRI scans performed only last week.Continue reading “A Mixed Bag”

BRCA1 & BRCA2 It’s All Down To Our Genes?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Post Genealogy Screening Results My aim for Genealogy Screening was to establish a baseline that might help to forewarn (and) protect my son, daughter and grandson (and future grandchildren) in years to come. However, I did also have more thanContinue reading “BRCA1 & BRCA2 It’s All Down To Our Genes?”

Geno Immuno Therapy Cancer Trials

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Today, 25th March ’21, as part of an assessment for eligibility to enrolle onto a Geno Therapy Trial I will be undergoing a new round of scans – CT Thorax abdo pelvis with contrast and whole body bone scanning …toContinue reading “Geno Immuno Therapy Cancer Trials”

30% Club

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Five years ago to the day (yesterday) 17th March 2016 ‘Paddy’s Day’ my prostate surgery anniversary via a Da Vinci Robotic-assisted Laparoscopic Radical Prostatectomy. A radical prostatectomy is a surgical procedure for the complete removal of the prostate and close proximity surroundingContinue reading “30% Club”

Dying Inside A COVID Straight-Jacket

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Time Time is precious. More so if you are restricted in what you can do with it. The clock’s ticking…. My clock is ticking faster and faster What would you do if circumstances allowed you to do literally anything youContinue reading “Dying Inside A COVID Straight-Jacket”

Won The Battle Now The War

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace  Fight Vindication The scan had produced the goods. I felt vindicated for my stubborn refusal to concede the scan. A scan I had been promised. Reality. Truth is if I had not been promised it I would have not even been aware of it?Continue reading “Won The Battle Now The War”

Desperate Times Desperate Measures

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace  Master Forger My frustrations of not receiving a PSMA scan (to inform my advanced cancer treatment) literally, boiled over. With only two possibilities wait (hope) that the Christie produced availability or zero. No possibility for a (UK) scan. We had an imminent trip toContinue reading “Desperate Times Desperate Measures”

Small(er) Things Big(er) Things

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace When you find out you have finite time (to live)? A natural response might be blind terror, panic …..questions? What about all of those things I need to (now) do? To attend to? The ‘putting of ones affairs in order’! I can’t believe someContinue reading “Small(er) Things Big(er) Things”

Time. 16. 17 And Beyond

Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace Fight For the second time in only a few months I was told that I had (incurable) cancer. I had already been told I had cancer, but not incurable cancer. It was even more terrifying hearing it the second time. They don’t know untilContinue reading “Time. 16. 17 And Beyond”