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Growing Old

Growing old? Why is it that the only things getting stronger are the hairs inside my nose and the smell of my piss? Thanks for Reading. Peace

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Dad ——————————————- Little Ant ————————————— Mum It was not my fault? It was not Mums fault either? My mother died aged 46. Something to do with her heart, recovering from one, of many, heart operations. I learned, quite recently,Continue reading “Nancy”

Improvised Scripts

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Emotional Ignorance You don’t know me ’cause I’m from a different ageAnd you can’t see me ’cause I live in a different ageAnd you can hurt me but you wouldn’t know what to sayBut you should believe me, ourContinue reading “Improvised Scripts”

44 Not Out

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. How we met 44 years ago 7th May 1977 (a Saturday). Jeff, my longest friend and I were on a night out to celebrate his first week at Fords, Halewood. Those days workers were paid weekly. Cash, pound notes,Continue reading “44 Not Out”

It’s All About ….. Me

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death Me I was spoilt, as a child, the baby of the family I usually got what I wanted (within limits). Nothing big and nothing too unrealistic, as we didn’t have that much money, small things, lots of small things. I was born withContinue reading “It’s All About ….. Me”

The Rich Get Richer – The Rest Can Just Fuckoff?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. The Pandemic – Fourteen months on Living within an ultimate deadline? Possibilities. Necessities. Practicalities. Realities. I have left my house only a handful of times in more than a year. I am now (at least) a year behind in my plans of ‘thingsContinue reading “The Rich Get Richer – The Rest Can Just Fuckoff?”

Carol

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. My Sister Carol. My big Sis. Carol put up with me. She tolerated me. She had no choice. My older sister, 4 years older, for much of the time, Carol had to fulfill many roles including looking after me.Continue reading “Carol”

Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 2)

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Sad When things were ‘bad’ at home my sister Carol and I would be farmed out to stay with relatives. As Carol grew older she remained at home, staying with friends and I would go alone. Not every weekendContinue reading “Growing Up. Happy. Sad (Part 2)”

We Are What We Eat?

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. Food I love it. A good meal, bottle of wine, home cooked or restaurant, here or abroad, old tastes, new tastes, I don’t care, I love food. This was not always the case. It wasn’t until I met Gail and we beganContinue reading “We Are What We Eat?”

Death In My Life

Life – Terror. Ecstasy. Fight. Denial. Flight. Failure. PAIN. Forgiveness. Reconciliation. Hope. Love. Peace – Death. A word in bold signifies the theme or topic for the latest blog. The themes (words) are in no particular order or priority other than they start with life and end with death. PAIN, in capitals, has a specialContinue reading “Death In My Life”